waiting in vain

◘WAITING IN VAIN◘

{ May 25, 2009 

◘WAITING IN VAIN◘

tick..tock..tick..tock..It’s already seven-thirty in the evening, I’m looking outside the window; hoping to see a familiar silhouette in a darkened street. But no, not yet, he is not there yet.But there’s still time, I’ve got to be patient. My eyes are swollen and sleepy, they’ve grown tired. wait, I can see someone. Is it him? no, Im wrong. That’s not him. What time is it? it’s already a quarter-to-eight. When will he come? Dark clouds are starting to form in the vast skies.Great. That would mean 50% chance that he’ll arrive and 50 % not. Damn it. I cant see a star. Where is he? I wish he would hurry. its been three days that i haven’t seen him. shit. it’s raining. 30% chance left. I’m hungry again. I’m looking like a balloon now. oh God, will he ever come? I can’t leave the window, maybe he would pass any minute now. it’s exactly eight. oh, my stomach is already protesting. but I can’t miss even a second or a minute, he might arrive. if he finds out that I’m not waiting by the window, he might get disappointed. and he would leave without letting me know that he’d already arrived, and he’ll never return again. no. I will wait. I will be patient. I will wait. there’s still time. oh, it’s already nine. where is he? are you wondering why I still wait for him? because I love him. I don’t want him to leave me. I don’t want him to feel embarrassed. I love him. I don’t want him to look stupid. I don’t want him to be like me…..

always waiting for him..

in vain..

◘♥sadheartsaint♥◘

confusions

Don’t come..

don’t touch me..

◘♥CONFUSIONS♥◘

leave me alone..

I don’t want  to see you, you already left me. So why are you here? you already abandoned me. When you left I didn’t know what to do, who to be with. So many have tried to own my heart but I still wouldn’t let them. It’s because I still love you. I’m still waiting for you. This heart of mine never grows tried. All of them wonder why I still wait for you. They think I’m crazy, crazy for you. They think I should find somebody else, but I don’t like the idea. I don’t like them to treat me in a special way. How I wish that you’re here to shove them away and hug me tight. I don’t know when you’ll come back, but I will wait. I know that you’re the only one that can stop this craziness, only you can hide me away. I don’t know why I still try to make you come back, you’ve hurt me but I want you back. My heart couldn’t find a home,  I’m still shivering under the rain. Even if I try to find somebody else, my heart would always remind me of you. It won’t let anyone inside it. I want them out. I want you back. I want them to stop this intrusion.

I want you to end my confusions..

◘♥sadheartsaint♥◘